IF YOU want an easier life, lower your standards. Settle for less. Accept what is offered. Disengage your critical faculties. Be passive and philosophical. Turn a blind eye. I could go on, but I am sure you're sick of hearing this already. It is not how you are, and it is not who you are. Ipso facto, you really don't ant an easier life! So enjoy the difficulties you are facing today. They are a side effect of your determination to achieve something highly worthwhile.